The Dream

Ever since I was a little girl I've had to go through really hard things, mostly with my family.  It hasn't been easy but I know that it's what made me who I am today.  There was a point where I was spoiled and got everything handed to me on a silver platter, but when I had all these privileges I didn't even realize how blessed I really was.  I would go to the mall with my mom every Saturday then go out to some fancy restaurant for lunch.  Anything I wanted I got, and my mom was more than happy to spend money on whatever I felt like.  Once my dad started having problems with his morals and standards all this was taken away from me.  I remember going to school everyday with a pit in my stomach, holding everything inside.  I was to scared to tell my friends, the only person I could talk to was my mom.  I had never felt so depressed in my whole life, not knowing whether I would be moving next month or if we could even afford groceries.  My family was falling apart right in front of my eyes and I didn't know what to do.  My sophomore year was the hardest and the most life changing.  My dad moved out, and my mom got a job.  My mom was my best friend, and now she was gone.  She worked morning till night, and when she got home she was exhausted.  My brother and sister were too young to understand what was going on so I had to change.  Instead being my spoiled self I had to be there for my mom whenever she needed me.  I finally told my best friend everything that I had gone through and she helped me more than anyone else.  I can't thank her enough for her support.  As my mom worked she got promotion after promotion, it was a miracle.  My family has grown closer than we have ever been, and I now have a better understanding of how I am truly so blessed.  I'm so grateful for the opportunity to go through all the trials I've had to go through because it has gotten me and my family to the point we are at today.
Finally after everything I'm starting to follow my dreams, and do what I've always dreamed of doing.  I love fashion and love modeling.  I don't know what it is but when I go shopping, or even see cloths, my mind goes crazy thinking of all the outfits I could put together.  Spending the last few years with not a lot of money I have found a lot of ways to find high fashion looking outfits on a low budget.  I'm gonna document all my outfits, and modeling shots as I accomplish them.  Its my dream to work my way into the fashion world and I'm just taking it one step at a time.